IF “You” Knew What I Was Forced To Understand 🗝

Numinous Guide And Healing is my Authentic Reality.
The Microscopic Understanding Of anything that passes my, I move into, constant detail of disaster fuels me to reach wider, bolder, WITH AUTHENTICITY REALITY CARE BEYOND UNDERSTANDING DEFINED BY MY DEATH MURDERED BY AUTHENTICITY OF CUT UP A BURIED IN THE DESERT I WAS 8 this was Authentic Real And Consciousness was Who I was at birth. I remember.

I’m Crazy, A liter, Narcissism drives me, RUN RUN RUN.
My Life is for you. Authenticity. Really. 
I only Smile for you in great abundance I march forward into battle.
Reality is For you I battle.
Authenticity is Battle to disqualify Truthfully.

Reality has it, you didn’t understand anything about Authenticity killed me. Reality Brought me back FOR YOU!


If I knew it would be the last Time that I see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more Tightly and pray the Lord Your soul to keep. If I knew it would be the last Time, I would see you walk out The door, I would give you a Hug and kiss and call you Back for one more. 🕐

If I knew it would be the last Time I’d hear your voice lifted Up in praise, I would video Each action and word So I can play them back day After day.

If I knew it would be the last Time I could spare an extra moment, to stop; and say I love you; Instead of assuming you would know I do.

If I knew it would be the last Time I would be there to share Your day well; I’m sure you’ll have so many More so I can let just this one Slip away. For surely there’s always Tomorrow, to make up for an Oversight; And we always get a second Chance to make everything Just right.

There will always be another Day to say, I love you, and Certainly there’s another Chance to say our, Anything I can do.

But just in case I might be Wrong and today is all I get . I’d like to say how much I love You and hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to Anyone young or old alike, And today may be the last Chance you get to hold your Loved one’s tight.

So if you’re waiting for Tomorrow, why not do it today For if tomorrow never comes You’ll surely regret the day, That you didn’t take the extra Time for a smile, a hug, Or a kiss, and you were too Busy to grant someone what Turned out to be there one last Wish.

So hold your loved ones close Today and whisper in her ear, Tell them how much you love Them and that you’ll always Hold them dear. Take time to say I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, Or Its Okay

And if tomorrow never comes You’ll have no regrets about Today.

*Joyful Day No Doubt *


Care is a thing I was forced to feed on. Injections of authentic reality and the bold truth from 6 feet under.

Buried tragedy in form of stacked caskets and urns.

11/2 yr 13 blood types under my nails, authentic reality seized me, put me to death where authenticity was, in reality, had vanished.

Murder, Stabbings, Rape, Decapitated wreckage, SIDS, drowning, cancer, Brain dead from the flu + malpractice, bf brother (by a truck) ran over, Bleed out heart failure. More & more, more… shall I cont.?

Na….. Authenticity forced me captive. Alone I found Understanding Authentic/Authentic Understanding.

No family, no breaks for (me) mom, raised 2 young girls, 7 & 10 into flowering young woman; While dead, rising in authenticity. REALLY!

DO YOU FEEL LIKE JUDGING MY reality before understanding my Authenticity!?

Numinous Guide And Healing = Authentic Reality/Vanisha’Bella = Authentic Reality

The Microscopic Understanding Of anything that I experience; Everywhere I go; All “BEINGS” I meet or take notice to; I am moved into constant, authentic detail of understanding the in’s & out’s of all that created/creates disaster. Complete with, who, where, when, why & how to; Fix, Rectify, Correct, Save, & make that CHANGE the world needs. All these remarkable circumstances fuel me to reach wider & bolder. WITH;  AUTHENTICITY REALITY * CARE BEYOND UNDERSTANDING * DEFINED BY MY DEATH * MURDERED BY AUTHENTICITYRESURRECTED NUMINOUS.  

  • My Life is for you. Authenticity. Really.
  • I Smile for ME. for You. for Uni; In GREAT abundance!
  • I March forward into Battle * Reality is; I AM TO DO THIS; For you; & SO, I Battle

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Author: Vanisha'Bella

Vanisha’Bella Izzarelli is a dynamic coach that inspires her clients to discover their own authentic reality. She guides them on a journey of acceptance, appreciation, and true peace using techniques that she has perfected over her own personal path and through years of mentoring. As a widow who survived the passing of several family members in a very short time period, Vanisha’Bella understands the realities of enduring true tragedy in life and then embracing the light beyond that. Her experiences have lead her to reach into the hardest parts of her clients’ experiences with true empathy. She is particularly skilled at deconstructing false walls and helping people move past their unhealthy defense mechanisms to embrace their (authentic reality) true self. To do this she developed a unique mirror image technique that guides clients to discovering, accepting, and embracing their whole self.

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